- Tomorrow is my last Chemo session. Afterwards, I have a month off and then I start Radiation treatments. I'm still trying to figure out which is worse, Chemo or Radiation. Chemo has taken nearly everything out of me, I hope Radiation goes a bit smoother.
- Otis, Sammie and Lightning...my mutts.
I don't know if I could get through all of this without my babies.
When the side effects kick in and all I want to do is sleep, these mutts make sure I can do it without any interruptions at all.
Usually, Otis and Lightning are laying in front of the bedroom door, a blockade that nobody can get by while Sammie lays next to me ready to growl and bark at anyone walking past the door.
- My latest blood labs came back and I'm a bit concerned. My White Blood Cell count is seriously elevated. Supposedly, a high White Blood Cell count is a sign of cancer. This opens some huge questions and concerns.
I've already decided that I'm not going through any more Chemo treatments and I'm still not too sure about starting Radiation.
If I end up having more cancer, then that's it for me. I'm not going to go through it again. I'm not going to spend the rest of my life going through operations, tests, treatments or whatever else will be thrown at me.
- CHAOS the Cat
He's an interesting fellow, very big, friendly and an awesome hunter, but he won't shut up! If his eyes are open, so is his mouth.
Check this out:
- I'm still amazed at how well I'm taking all of this. I'm very calm about the whole thing. I can't see myself getting all bent out of shape, this happens millions of times for millions of women. My overall attitude is "Whatever happens, happens".
My Oncology staff has commented many times of how most patients are inconsolable and then I come in with a realistic outlook and a sense of humor.
Yes, having cancer bothers me, but why let the world know about it.
- For the first time in my life, I'm seriously thinking about getting a tattoo. We've all seen the teardrop under the eye tattoos, I was thinking about one of those except instead of a teardrop, I want a cancer awareness pink ribbon.
Nothing big or elaborate, just a small dignified statement.
Maybe something like this:
- There are many side effects that nobody tells you about...
My fingertips and finger nails are so sore. They feel like each finger has been hit with a hammer.
My eyes are so sore and red. I wake up in the mornings with my eyelids glued shut.
My arms and legs feel like I just swam to Catalina Island and back.
My mouth is so sore. It's like my mouth is lined with sandpaper. My teeth are aching, too.
Chemo Belly. Best described as Paint me Yellow, Turn me Sideways and I would look like Homer Simpson.
Chemo Crotch...Umm, enough said about that.
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